Being Real...

This week marks the 6th week that I have been doing this Gett Fitt program. I have good days and bad as far as being motivated and excited to continue, but this week has been particularly slow for me. :( I know it may have something to do with the recent upgrade in dosage for my fertility medications (we are trying to get pregnant) or even the fact that this week has felt like yet another "plateau week" in my weight loss progress, but none the less, it has really bummed me out. Usually I am pretty good about not letting things get the best of me, but this week has been particularly hard to fight it off. I don't feel like myself and wonder when I will again. It's such a weird feeling to feel like someone else is in your body controlling all of your emotions.

The good news is this is my 6th cycle and final cycle of clomid at the highest dosage possible. The bad news is if it doesn't work this month, we will have to regroup and start something new to try and help my body be normal. Lol. What??? My body isn't functioning normal? Lol. What a surprise! ;) Anyways, this week my attitude has been very negative and definitely one not full of faith. I know God will provide in his perfect timing, but this week I was just angry and frustrated.

Yesterday morning I was reading in the Bible and God gave me this verse... "Behold, I make all things new." Rev. 21:5 The New Living Translation says, "Look, I am making everything new!" This made me sit and take a good look at my life and my attitude that I had let get the best of me this past week. I need not to doubt that God is working and moving in my life, but instead trust in faith and even OPEN MY EYES and LOOK around me to see that even when I feel things aren't going the way they should, God is still making all things new. He will continue to do that no matter what kind of a mood I am in! What a relief! ;)

I read in a book that "when you blame God, you cut yourself off from His power, doubt replaces trust, and you put down roots of bitterness that make you cynical. When you blame others you add to the distance between them and you, and lose the only option that works - forgiveness. Instead, trust the One who promised to "make all things new," and move forward."

I hope this challenges and encourages you like it has me this week. God is good ALL OF THE TIME no matter what the circumstances may be or what our attitude is reflecting! Thank goodness for that! :) Trust in Him that He has your best interests in mind and He will never fail you!

New Year... New You!

2010 has brought about many new changes in the Jackson family! Blake is now doing ALL of the student ministry stuff at the church... The teaching, the singing, the videos, the EVERYTHING!!! He is handling all of this extra stuff so well, I am extremely proud of him! I just thought I was busy before but have had a rude awakening this past month. I am now, in addition to my regular work load and regular life duties am also working out 2 times a day and watching what I eat. Now, if you know me at all, you know this is a HUGE change and a constant task for me! ;) Lol. I am, along with my buddy, Amos the poster child for our church GeT FiTT series. This has been a huge undertaking but I am excited to see what the results will be at the end of the 12 weeks! You can follow our journey HERE I will try and do a better job of keeping up with this blog and making sure you stay in the know of our life happenings! :)

Hustle & Bustle

I can't seem to figure out where all of the time is going?!?!?! I feel like this year has flown by so stinkin' fast! I had big plans of sending out cute Christmas cards, getting my Christmas shopping done really early, and having a well planned, relaxed holiday season. HAHAHAHAHA. I think I have learned my lesson this year. I should never have planned ahead like that. Lol. Instead of being on top of things, the opposite has come true! I barely have any of my Christmas shopping done, no Christmas cards will be going out from the Jacksons this year, and I feel incredibly behind!!! I need time to simply slow down just for a week or so! Can't a girl catch a break? ;)

On a happier note... I do finally have my Christmas decorations up! Lol. I am trying to pull it together and know that even though it's not as organized as my OCD self would hope, it will all come together eventually.

Does anyone else feel like this? Am I alone? What's stressing you out this Holiday season? What's making you happy and thankful this Christmas?

Being Sick...

Today I am finishing up day 4 of being sick. I am getting pretty tired of it and am more than ready to get back to my normal self! I went to the doctor and she told me that I have a viral upper respiratory infection, along with a good 'ole common cold, and fluid in my ears. I was excited that is wasn't strep again or the flu! I was quickly brought back to down to earth when she said that she couldn't do anything to help me since it is viral! :( She said I just had to rest, drink lots of fluids, try over the counter decongestants & meds, and rest some more! She said it would take 7-10 days to run it's course. Are you serious??? I don't have that many days! I am probably one of the most impatient people in the world and this whole pulling back and resting thing is not the easiest for me. I just thought I would vent on here tonight. I was supposed to sing last night for church and tonight for church but couldn't because I can't stop coughing, sneezing and sound like a man! I am hoping and praying this ends sooner than later! :) What is annoying you tonight?

Random thoughts from Robin...

I have put off updating our blog for a long long time now all because I felt overwhelmed that so much has happened and I couldn't possibly get it all on here. BUT, tonight, I have decided to overcome that and start back. Instead of trying to catch you up, I have decided to start back with today. Here we go...

Today is Monday, our day off. I love this day every week! :) I love to be lazy and hang out with my hottie husband all day long!!! I love cleaning together, cooking together, snuggling and watching tv together... basically almost everything we do on Mondays is TOGETHER! I think that's why it's my favorite day!!!

What's your favorite day of the week and why???

Life is so busy right now...

I don't really even know where to start... So much has happened in June and I failed to blog about any of it. I think I am going to look back in my journal later and try to catch everyone up on here soon. I don't know, maybe it's just better to start from where we are today, a little of what we have learned along the way and move forward rather then look back...

Maybe I am just over analyzing, who knows?!?!? Well, for now, I guess I will just share my current thoughts off the top of my head. FYI: This is always a dangerous thing as I can be one of the most random people in the entire world and I really don't think God created me with a filter of any kind.

Moving on... Today I am sitting in my little shack fixing to head down to Alvin, Texas to see my handsome husband as he is at Middle School camp. I miss him and am excited to get to see what they are up to and how God is moving in the student's lives. I just got home from a morning( really a day) full of contemplative meetings. 

Side note: (WOW, I can't seem to stay focused.  I am even more ADD than normal, sorry) Life seems to be flying past me like someone is holding down the fast forward button. Does anyone else feel this way? I don't think I am doing much more than I normally am, but somehow feel like I am just out of control and can't seem to get my thoughts, my messy house, my life in general, or anything else in order right now! 

Alright, back to my day. I started out the day with a meeting about "Why" we do what we do. It really made me think back through the past month and the lessons God has been teaching me. So often, I get caught up in the process and the results not coming out like I had hoped or planned for... I forget the "why" I am who I am am and what started me on this journey in the first place. Is this making any sense??? I really need to start asking myself "why" a lot more and evaluating my every move on a deeper level! It's definitely a good thing!

I have been challenged today and am feeling all kinds of emotions ranging from confusion, frustration, peace, dissatisfaction and motivation to find more of God. I have a new stirring and hunger inside of me. 

I love visuals, so here are a few photos to help you visualize my feelings! :)

Weight!

Alright, here are my thoughts for today...

I had this conversation with my friend Cheryl the other day and we couldn't figure it out. Maybe you guys can help me out. Why is it that the things like eating right, working out, and resting; which we know are good for us, are the things we continually avoid? 

Maybe it's just me, but I know it's good for me and I even feel better about myself and have more energy after I work out and exercise. BUT, for some reason, I struggle to stay motivated. Why is that??? I seem to find anything and everything to do that gets in the way of me doing what's best for me and my body! :( 

Help me... do you have any thoughts, tricks, or ideas of how to stay motivated and be more self-disciplined???