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Sunday, May 31, 2009

My Adventure Book

Wow. Blake and I went on a double date late last night with our sweet friends, the Scranton's. We saw "UP," the new Disney movie. It was too cute but way sadder than I expected. It actually made me think the whole car ride home and even now as I type this. Are cartoons supposed to make you cry and truly contemplate life?!?!? Maybe I am just overemotional and vulnerable because of where we are in life right now. It seems that tragedy and sadness is hitting a lot of our friends and loved ones. It has made me think about life and death this whole week. You never know how much time you have left or what God's plan is for your life. Wow, my mind is flooding with all kinds of thoughts on life right now...  

Oh, if you haven't seen the movie yet, you may want to stop reading... I don't want to spoil it for you!

Anyways, it starts off about a precious love story and made me very nostalgic. I have been crazy emotional lately and very extra attached to my sweet husband's hip. The movie made me think about the moment I met Blake all the way through today and all of the memories we have made together. The laughter, the tears, the big life changes we have carried each other through, the tragedies we have been there to hold one another through, the crazy hectic times, the sweet relaxing moments. Even in the short time we have known each other, 7 years, there have been so many thoughts that come to my mind right now.

How could I have gotten so attached to someone in such a short time? I found myself crying as Ellie dies in the movie and leaves her best friend, the love of her life behind. I starting thinking about Blake and myself. What if one of us dies and leaves the other behind? What if it happens before we get to live out all of our dreams together? What if it happens and we have regrets of not making more of the sweet time that we have together? It was really beginning to bother me and eat away at me all throughout the movie. Then, at the end of the movie, it made me change how I was thinking...

I have now been encouraged to not worry about the future and dwell on the time that we "may" or "may not" have together, but instead hold onto and cherish every single little moment that we get together today! I love my husband and cannot not imagine my life without him. I thank God for bringing us together and for all of the incredible blessings He has given us over the years!

In the movie, Ellie made a book and called it "My Adventure Book." It was a scrapbook with all of her dreams and goals in it. She made it as a child and didn't realize that as she got older her dreams, goals, and priorities would change. I am now looking at my life-long dreams and goals. Which ones should I strive after and which ones should I realize are just a childhood fantasy? I am not sure yet, but I do know that "My New Adventure Book" will not be full of the things I want and hope to do in the future but instead, full of the pictures and stories of the fun things (the adventure) that we are getting to walk through together every single day!

Thanks Ellie for making me look at life through your fun eyes! :)

4 comments:

MG said...

Thanks for sharing. I saw the movie Up! as well. Do you remember what the last page, before the pictures of them together, says? The page where Carl stops reading initially, but then goes past at the end? Thanks!

Ashwin said...

Thank you for sharing this. I too was moved to tears when i saw the movie.
I loved the part in the end when Carl discovers that Ellie considered their life together to be her adventure.
I cant get that moment out of my head, my eyes tear up when i think of it. It was like a fairy tale.

ബിജിത്‌ :|: Bijith said...

Hi Jackson,
I loved going through what you feel about UP. It moved me too...
http://moviesasisee.blogspot.com/2010/03/up-as-i-see-it.html


Hope you are doing good. God bless you...

anilbirajdar said...

Thanks for sharing your thoughts...I felt almost the samw way....very well written blog.

Regards

ANIL